Soo..I have been sick all week..and its not gettin better! & ive just been upset latly i feel like i have nobody except Zack...which is probly true but i just wish it wasnt...I guess nobody like me bc i ride horses or whatever...maybe they think im just a bitch..I just dont get the point of havin to b freakin out cryin to get you "Best Friend" to have time for you..or havin to always go out of your way jsut to spend one f*in day with them~ im just tierd of even tryin to be nice...Blah pisses me OFF! Sometimes i just wish i could move and never talk to anyone from school again so i would be upset about this stupid shit! Only 1 more yr left so......& I was gonna go to Abac so me and zack could be together but now im freakin out about that bc im thinkin about the ppl here that act. care about me and i will miss.....Soo i will prob. end up at somewhere close to home....Without zack which will be AWful bc i really wont have nebody......but it will be ok i guess.Grandparents**.& my papa john has alztimers(i have no idea how to spell it where u forget stuff) and everytime i go see them it makes me sad bc he looks soo happy but u can tell he is sad but mawmaw is ok i guess we all still sing when i go over there john is soo cute bc he forgets where we are and just totally changes songs!Its sad but he looks soo sweet! ...But the good things nowlol..My first show is next friday thanks goodness!!  These walking horse ppl are gonna crack me up they are soo weird!!Im soo excited....Ne 1 want to come to a show? Ha they are fun i promise but i dont ne1 will...My dad is teaching me to play guitar which is gonna be hard bc he plays by ear lol....Umm we will see how far i get!!Im gonna try hard tho.... He is excited about my new horse! Well i guess im done now im so tierd......nite....

I QUIT!!!!!!!!!:(

Soo me and Zack have been going out 1 Year and 3 days now!!!Yeah things are going pretty god now. I got a new horse we went and picked up like 2 wks ago in TN and he KICKS ASS!!like big time i cant wait till the first show~~~  &  ive been working with kellie for like 2 wks lol we have so much fun lol~~But yea im tierd soo im going to ZZZ

I LOVE YOU ZACK!!

Just got home from the Monster Truck Jam!!Lol!It was good!!But im tierd now so im going to bed!!Love You Zack!